I'm not sure how to start this so I'm just going to type and hopefully it'll make some sort of sense when I'm finished...
For the past month or so I've been struggling pretty heavily with a kind of relapse of my depression. I was diagnosed and started meds five or six years ago (wow, has it really been that long?) I've been basically mentally stable for the past 3 or 4 years. But about a month ago I started having major problems again. After spending a LOT of time trying to figure out what triggered it... I came to the decision that the best thing for me to do for my own mental health is to move out of the place I share with two roommates (one of whom is a very close friend). The two of them are a couple and I've been feeling since day one that I'm just living in their place, that it isn't really mine. There are some other issues too, but I don't really want to go into that now.
So, I've decided I need to move out. We have a little over a month 'till our lease is up and now everyone has to find new places 'cuz of me. Even tho' I know it's the right decision I'm feeling very guilty about screwing my best bud out of a great place. (we really do have a great place right now)
I'm also having the added guilt of having to get rid of my kitty Ebony. He is such a wonderful cat, but I just can't keep him. My brother calls him the cat-dog. He acts more like a dog than a cat. He runs to the door to see who is there and then immediately wants to be petted. Just like a golden or a lab. He loves to snuggle and he's just a wonderful, laid-back kitty. But it just isn't feasible for me to keep him and my bird Dolce. And Dolce is my first priority. I've had him for over 4 years, and he is my baby. It is really amazing how attached I am to that bird!
So, I'm feeling guilty about having to abandon my cat, and about hurting my best bud. I don't know what to do, or if there's even anything I can do.
I think I'm done rambling, and I hope it all made sense!