Sunidesus Speaks

Two days of crying during the early newscasts.

Why?

I don't know.

I feel stuck, I feel ignored, I feel passed over. I feel shoved aside.

I hate feeling like this. I hate not knowing what to do to make it better. I hate feeling that even if there was something that would help, I wouldn't be able to do it.

I hate that I feel like I should be happy for my friend, but I'm not. I hate being angry about it. I hate feeling so completely and utterly spent.

I want to go back to last week. I was happy last week.

I hate not knowing if this is me, or if this is my disease.

I want to be acknowledged. I want to be fixed.