I feel like I'm falling apart. The tiniest little things are setting me off and I hate it. I can go from being able to deal with stuff to bawling and unable to cope in seconds.
I hate feeling like this.
Not 15 minutes after I posted that I got a phone call. And I'm suddenly feeling better.
It was one of the stations I sent resume tapes to last Tuesday. AHHH!!!!! I'm going to be cautiously optimistic. Very cautiously. But oh my word! That makes me feel so much better.
Someone out there thinks I do a good enough job to give me a call back. And it's an above 50 market! Eeps! Excuse me, I'm going to go do the happy dance now.
Thanks to the previously mentioned phone call and a wonderfully goofy IM conversation with Solly I'm in a much better mood now.
And my web programming class starts tomorrow and that should be fun. I'm going to bring my 'puter with me. There's no way I'd be able to take notes longhand for an hour. My hand would fall off! But type for an hour, that I can do. Gotta go do work now. Bu-Bye!
Last night the assistant production manager said that the production manager would be calling me back today. Sometime this morning. Nobody's called me yet. Now I'm feeling all paranoid.
Ack! Something happen already so I can stop freaking out!
A certain half-elf asked me a bunch of questions and as today is my day off, and I'm procrastinating about writing a letter to my boss, I'll answer them!
Standard rules apply, you've all seen this meme by now right? I don't need to repeat them?
Seriously. I just wanted to say it.
No particular reason. I just wanted to tell all of you how much I appreciate all the really great, wonderful, caring friends I've made through this place. It's no secret that I've had a roller coaster of a time this past month and it's been so nice to be able to come here and talk and know that people are listening and that you all care. And to know that someone on my blogroll will be doing/saying something goofy that'll make me laugh no matter how foul my mood!
So I wanted to take a moment and be all sappy and say Thank You! and I love all of you!
I just saw a promo for tomorrow's episode of Pet Star on Animal Planet. I don't usually watch that show because the few times I have the annoying 7 year old who has a pet that sorta does something vaguely trick like wins. Instead of the adult with the very well trained and multi-talented pet. It annoys me.
But back to the subject!
The promo showed the most adorable little Black-Headed Caique doing lots of tricks. So now I'm going to have to watch just to see that little bundle of feathers.
The few caiques that I've met have been very playful and fun, and this one looks like no exception!
Before I adopted Mione from a friend I had been thinking that I'd like a second parrot. (You can read all about my beautiful birdies here) A caique was way up on the list of possiblities for a second bird. But now I've got Dolce & Mione and there really isn't space for a third, or the time!
[Update: I'm trying to find a better link to a species site for the Caique, that one is to a breeder that ships birds and I'm not a fan of that practice. Stand-by!]
[Update #2: All fixed!]
Very excited. Can't talk about it yet. Hopefully soon. That is all.
I can't believe I haven't written anything since Thursday! What's wrong with me?
I think I'll have days now and then when I'm either too busy or just don't feel very talkative and I don't blog. But then if it's more than a couple days I get overwhelmed by the thought of catching up with everyone. I know, I'm a weirdo. I don't need to be caught up with my reading in order to post, but sometimes they just seem to go together.
And I will talk about the squeal-worthy news from the previous post. A co-worker with a big mouth told the entire frelling building (like how I stuck a Farscape reference in there?) so the reason for keeping it a secret no longer exists.
The phone call that I got on Tuesday turned into a second phone call on Wednesday, and message on Thursday saying they want to fly me out for an in person interview! WooHoo!!!!! So excited about that! The production manager there and myself have been exchanging e-mails and voice mails trying to get flights set up. Eek!
So that was my Very Good News (tm)
Well, I just booked myself on a flight out to Providence (where my interview is) for next week Tuesday. So be prepared for a very nervous Suni this time next week! Hopefully by the end of next week I'll know something.
I'm excited, and nervous, and hopeful, and nervous, and a little scared, and everything else all bundled up together. (Did I mention nervous?)
Any advice from people that have had big job interviews? I've only ever interviewed for flunky part-time jobs before. And that's a whole different thing! Eek! (please excuse any incoherent babbling coming from this area of the blogosphere the next week or so, thanx)
I came across this quote and I felt like sharing it:
"America is a large friendly dog in a small room. Every time it wags its tail it knocks over a chair."
- Arnold Toynbee (1889 - 1975)
No idea who the guy is, but I thought it was an interesting quote.
My inner child is six years old!
Look what I can do! I can walk, I can run, I can
read! I like to do stuff, and there's a whole
big world out there to do it in. Just so long
as I can take my blankie and my Mommy and my
three best friends with me, of course.
How Old is Your Inner Child?
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I have the stupid White City Glass spot in my head. AAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
It's a local spot that has an almost virus-like jingle. And it's now in my head.
I am sooo on the verge of dropping this class. This prof is driving me bonkers. She seems to think that Dreamweaver is the be-all and end-all of coding.
She keeps badgering me about hand-coding. Today she wanted to know if I had switched to Dreamweaver yet. NO you crazy woman. I don't have the money to shell out for a program that's just going to annoy me. On Monday in lab I did almost the entire thing in the code part because the program didn't do what I wanted it to.
I did meet one nice chick (we were partners in lab on Monday) her name's Jami. She might be stopping by here so everybody be nice 'k?
It's that day again.
Has it really been two years?
I don't have anything profound to say about it. I submitted my Voice and later today I think I'll try to read other people's stories.
Maybe I'll write more later. Right now I can't think of anything to say that hasn't already been said.
The Day is over. I found myself a lot more emotional and affected than last year. I think I gave myself permission to feel this year and that changed how I reacted. Last year I was so afraid that I'd lose control like I had when it happened that I avoided everything as much as I could. I'm kind of late to the party, but I think this year I actually mourned.
It just started raining. Horrah! It sounds like it's actual rain too, not just sprinkles. We've had hardly any rain all summer so this is a very good thing.
This morning I was awoken by a loud pounding knock on my door. I threw on a my nightgown and went to answer it. My mailman was standing there with a certified letter for me. I signed on all of the lines and wished him a good morning.
Close my door, tear open the letter.
It seems that the Chief Financial Officer at the company I was talking about back on May 21st is a little peeved.
It appears that a posting to your Weblog contains comments that are both inaccurate and disparaging to XXX and XXX's CEO XXX. Since I am sure you did not create such comments yourself and do not want such opinionated gossip to remain associated with you, I believe it would be in our mutual best interests if you removed this posting.
I started laughing shortly after starting to read. Whatever it is that they have an issue with is in the comments, I didn't write it. Take it up with whomever it was that left it. I haven't ever edited comments around here.
I think I'm going to add a little "comments are the opinions of the commenter" kind of thing to my comments template. Just on the off chance they decide to pursue this, that way I'm covered.
It was just one of those "I'm so blogging this" kind of moments. I kind of want to call them up just to tell them that.
I just took a bunch of ibuprofen and I'm hoping it kicks in soon. Every time I move my lower back does this spasmy shooting pain thing that will travel down into my hips and sometimes lower. My right leg is hurting all the way down to my knee and some of my calf.
My back hurts on a fairly regular basis, I always sleep with a pillow under my knees because if I don't it'll hurt in the morning. But never like this. This is a whole different thing. This HURTS!
I've now taken ibuprofen twice and nothing's changed. If I go up or down my stairs and use my right leg it just gets worse. Can't really bend over forwards at all.
I went searching through WebMD and found a nerve pressue thing that seems to match, but I'm not really sure at what point I should be worried. It's so weird. It came out of nowhere and now it's refusing to go away. Grr!
After talking with my aunt (who's a nurse) I called Urgent Care and made an appointment for myself to go in and see someone. I hope they can give me some good drugs or something.
As long as it can be gotten rid of by Tuesday I'll be a happy camper. I can put up with it for a couple days, but I really don't want to go to my interview all out of it and feeling crappy.
Well, I went to Urgent Care and saw a very nice doctor. She said it doesn't look like I have anything nasty wrong like a ruptured disc. Sometimes people's backs just start hurting and sometimes it spreads all down this really long nerve that goes down your leg called the Sciatic Nerve.
She gave me prescriptions for a pain reliever and a muscle relaxer. I took one of each and I'm just kinda waiting to see if they work or not. Here's hoping.
Syn is being wonderful and going in to work for me so I think I'm going to be spending the rest of the day doing some literal navel-gazing, if not figurative.
Still in pain, but much better. The meds the doctor prescribed seem to reduce it to an achy thing that's there, but manageable. Lots better than it was. I'm just hoping that remains true.
Thanks to everyone for thinking of me. It really does make a girl feel better to know that people care.
In just about 36 hours I'm going to be leaving the Cities on my way to Rhode Island. Eek! I'm excited, and quite nervous. But mostly excited. Just the thought of finally maybe moving to a new station/market/city is getting me all excited.
I'm now in Rhode Island. Eep! My interview is tomorrow so I'm hoping that goes well. Needless to say I'm a little nervous! And excited! And nervous! Although, the first thing I saw when I got off the plane was this. Do you think it's a sign?
Wait, don't answer that. It's obviously a sign. Oh, you know what I mean.
Trying to figure out the bus system for a city you don't know is very difficult! Attention to all web designer types that do sites for cities: the bus schedule would make a lot more sense if there were one big map and then you could pick an area within the map. All the separate little maps for each individual route that don't really show where they are Do Not Help.
I'm trying to figure out how to take the bus to a park that has a cache hidden in it. I think I'll ask at the front desk tomorrow since I'm having a horrid time trying to figure it out myself.
I have no idea what movie it is that I'm watching, but it has very baby-faced Matt Damon, Chris O'Donnell, Brenden Fraser, and Ben Affleck. They're all so little and cute! They're all at some sort of boys prep or boarding school or something. No idea what it is.
Update: Whatever channel this is it doesn't seem to have commercials. HBO maybe? I'm at a hotel and I don't know the channels and looking up the channel would involve getting up and finding the hotel guide thing. Don't really want to do that at the moment. And I haven't been motivated enough to try to imdb it.
Matt Damon just dropped the n word! Yikes! I didn't think that was allowed ever. And the guys it's about are very concerned about a French class. I'm actually understanding a lot of the french though so that's cool. I haven't actually used my french in years. I'm amazed I'm remembering any of it.
Update #2: Most of the guys are very anti-semitic in this movie. It seems to be set in the 50's and it's this big scandal that one of their classmates is Jewish. Weird.
Just so's you know, I wrote this post this morning around 7:30 or 8. Now you know!
This totally rocks my socks. I'm sitting in the Providence airport on a lovely wifi hotspot thanks to TMobile.
I'm sitting at my gate. I'm going to be sitting here for at least another hour before my plane boards so I figured I'd at least try to write something. I was writing this in notepad, but my wifi card just managed to find the internet so now I'm writing it here instead!
I never had time to go geocaching. Or more accurately I would have had time, but I spent most of Wednesday in my hotel room waiting for dudely man to call me and tell me when I'd be interviewing and what I should do to get to the station. He didn't call until 2:30pm. So I would have had plenty of time since I got up at 9ish to just sit, and wait, and wait. Ack! I should have just called and asked him, but I'm such a chicken when it comes to that kind of stuff. I hate calling people. E-mail or blog comments I'm all good, but the phone freaks me out. Go figure. So I brought Elmo the Tbug all the way out here with me only to take him back home again! I'll have to find a good place to leave him back home.
Interview went ok I guess. I'm horrible at reading these kind of things. Let's see... Dudely man came and picked me up at my hotel around quarter to 3. I got myself all dressed up (even put on makeup!) and he took me to the station. We talked for a bit in his office and then he gave me the grand tour of the place. Not the sales and promotions and such, since those areas are pretty boring, but the studio, control room, engineering, tape room, all that stuff.
There was another candidate there at the same time. That was weird. He seemed quite a bit older than me (I'm guessing mid-30's) and has directed at all kinds of different places. Made me feel like a little kid playing with the grown-ups.
It's an interesting setup. It's a duopoly so they run both the Fox and CBS affils out of the one building. News on both channels. CBS has news solid from 5 'till 6:30 and we both stayed to watch all of that. Fox has an hour of news at 10 and then CBS has 35 minutes at 11.
The shows are really fast paced with lots of effects and graphics and opens. Very fun. Looks like it'd be a challenge compared to what I'm doing now, but I'm more than ready to be challenged again! Right now at work I tend to find myself slipping into habits and just sailing through the day without really having to think too much.
Well, no, that's not entirely accurate. I do have to think, and it is hard sometimes. But for the most part I'm very comfortable with what I do and most of the time I can float through the day on autopilot. I love it when my producer scripts stuff fast and changing and hard. Those transitions that when we're through it I catch my breath and say "good job everybody". I don't get those often enough any more.
We talked some more after the shows. He wanted to know how much time it would take me, assuming he offered me the job, to get out there. That's a good sign right?
Oh, and their master control is hubbed too. But it actually works well for them! So it is possible to have that hubbed and everything not crash and burn. I wonder what that's like?
So that's where we're at. I should know something either way within a couple days.
Last thing... I have a phone interview tonight with a whole 'nother station! (I'm just so popular.)
I've always had a tendancy to think I'm not good at anything, no matter how much evidence there is to the contrary, and it really makes me feel good to know that these people think I'm good enough to want to call me, to interview me. I know that the only way I'll really believe I'm good at things is to decide within myself that I am, but it sure does help to have outside people tell me too! (no I'm not fishing for compliments!) The things my family and friends say are wonderful, but I tend to think they're not very objective. Ack! I have issues!
Really wasn't meaning to get so deep and rambly here, but I'm going on very little sleep and I don't really have anything else to do. So I'm rambling! And you're the lucky people that get to read it.
Update: Tmobile no longer rocks my socks. Just when I hit “save” it decided to redirect me to a site where I have to purchase time on the network. It would appear that they let you on for half on hour to get you excited and then say you have to pay to continue what you were doing. Grrr! That’s not nice! If they’d said up front I had to pay that’d be one thing. But it masquerades as free and then part way through decided it’s not. So… you probably won’t be reading this until I get home this afternoon! But I wrote this this morning. So it’s like a window into the past… yeah, that’s it!
I just had an hour long phone interview with another station. I'm feeling downright popular I tell you! Now if we could just get past the interview stage to the hiring stage...
ABC has a new drama this fall Threat Matrix. I've been forced to endure their ridiculous promos ad nauseum for the past couple months and wasn't too impressed. But I figured I'd at least watch the first episode and see if it's any good.
The show itself... not sure yet. However, I had the lovely surprise of finding out that one of the supporting actors is Deaf! And she's playing a hot, smart, kick butt kind of gal. Very cool.
One little nit though... they're making it like her co-workers know ASL so they understand her when she signs. However, no one interprets for her and they're all talking WAAAAAAYYY too fast and switching who's talking too fast in big groups. Very hard to lip read in that kind of situation. It is all very high tech, latest toys, kind of place; so maybe they're running speech recognition software on everyone and it spits out on her computer screen? That's the only thing I can think of.
I shall be watching in any case!
I haven't been blogging very much the last week or so. I'm not sure why. I haven't been taking pictures either. Not even participating in the photo memes that I love hunting for each week.
I know I've been in one of those "just make it though the day" kind of places lately. It's frustrating, and I'm sure that talking about it would help. But when I'm in that place I never feel like talking.
I dunno. I'm just kind of here I guess.
Just got off the phone with Rhode Island station. He wanted phone numbers of references. They're all on my resume, but I guess he couldn't find it so he called me. He said he'd be calling me back "soon". Eek!
So I know I'm still in the running, so all my paranoidness was just me being weird. *squeals some more*
Apparently I've broken my blogging bleh-ness...
Couple things that I'm going to throw out into the blogosphere for prayers, good thoughts, mojo, good vibes, whatever you prefer.
First thing is a custody mess with a relative. Something good with it should be happening today, so we're all praying that that remains true.
Second thing I talked about last year around this time. The parental units left on Saturday for Asia. They'll be there for about 6 weeks. I can't talk about a lot of the details here, but of all the traveling they do, this is the trip that makes me the most nervous. I know that they're with people who know the area and know how to be safe, but no matter how much my head knows, I still get nervous about the whole thing.
So I'm just throwing all of that out there.
I'm watching this new NBC show Las Vegas. It's actually a lot of fun. I'm usually not one for stream of consious ramblings, but this one is good. From the previews I wasn't expecting much, but I really like it!
BTW, you can expect lots more posts like this one as the shows premiere over the next couple weeks.
Also, expect a huge post in a couple days.
To bring you this special report.
In about three weeks I'm going to be in Rhode Island starting a new job!
The interview I went on last week became a job offer yesterday, and me accepting it today.
I'm excited, and nervous, and overwhelmed. But mostly I'm really happy!
Hopefully the moving will go smothly, but don't worry. I'll keep everyone updated as much as I can.
*dances around squealing*
I'm feeling so "in over my head" right now. There's so much that I need to get done in the next two weeks and I haven't the faintest idea of where to start.
I'm so very excited about going (and getting more so all the time) but the logistics of getting there are freaking me out. I don't know what to do. I'm thrilled to death, but at the same time I'm scared and nervous and feeling very overwhelmed.
I need to find an apartment, and hire movers, and pack, and cancel all of my utility stuff here and get utility stuff there. But I can't get utility stuff until I get an apartment. I can't hire movers until I do that either. I have to tell my landlords that I'm leaving. I need to get travel cages for the birdies, and get the oil changed in my car (hi Dad) I need to find a new cell phone, and a new bank, and get a couple months worth of meds so I'll have plenty of time to find a new doctor out there. And once I find a new bank all of my automatic payment stuff needs to be changed.
I'm loosing my mind here.
When you're at a restaurant and your server's shift ends, to whom to you give the tip? She was very good while she was here, but now it's someone else (who isn't very good, as they haven't been by in the past 40 minutes or so to refil my pop) and I would like to make sure my tip goes to the good server! Anybody know what one does in this situation?
And to answer the question I know you're thinking... Yes I'm blogging in a restaurant. I'm sitting at Perkins in a booth next to an outlet. I just really didn't want to go home yet so I decided to treat myself to a midnight omelet.
I'm finally watching my first Survivor episode of the season. I missed the premiere so I'm starting with the second one.
I'm liking this Rupert guy (that's his name right? The big dude with the beard?)
I know lots of cat bloggers, but I know there must be some bird bloggers out there! Have any of you traveled/moved with your birds? Not just across town. We're talking a couple days of driving. What's the best way to go about it?
I'd like to get travel cages for the Fids, which looks like it'll run me about $25 or $30 for each birdie. But the smaller cages would be a lot easier to handle than their everyday ones. I'm honestly not sure if their normal cages would even fit through my car door! And if they did fit they'd take up the entire back seat which'd leave very little space for anything else.
I don't want to stress the two of them out at all, so I'm wanting to do this the best way possible. Dolce I'm sure will be fine. He's always liked car rides so I'm not too worried about him. But Mione hasn't been in cars very often so I'm not as sure about how she'll react.
Anyway! I appear to be babbling.
I just have so much to do! There's an apartment I'm applying for that I really hope I get. It's gorgeous and not too expensive and it's only 5 minutes from the station where I'm going to be working. How perfect is that? So keep your fingers crossed that that works out.