Sunidesus Speaks

I am alive and kicking. Just still having a hard time adjusting. I was starting to feel slightly more back to normal, but then I went and slipped way back again. But I just found something out today that I just couldn't resist...

I have been officially de-spamed thanks to a little help from a certain plugin. It was quite painless and I don't know why on earth I waited so long!

I've only been at work for a couple hours and it's already insane here.

It's the one year anniversary of the Station Nightclub Fire. There's special reports and the main anchors are anchoring from the site. The 11 isn't going to have any commercials. It's really intense.

I remember when it happened, but I don't have any sort of emotional attachment to it like the people here do. Just about everyone knows someone who was hurt or died. I'm just hoping I don't mess anything up since I know it'll be a much bigger deal today than it would be on a usual day.

Apparently two weeks of no posting has me in geek withdrawl. I just created a moblog! It's the default template at the moment, but it works. I'll have to play with it more to make it match the style of the rest of my blogs. And there's still that pesky integrating the thumbnails into the main blog thing that I've been wanting to do for more than a year. We'll see what happens with that!

I seem to have broken something.

Something's definately broken. I'm trying to fix it, but I'm going to have to do some actual work at some point this evening. Hopefully, at the latest, I can fix it when I get home tonight.

Remember how I said I didn't feel emotionally connected to what was going on today? Yeah. You can ignore that. I'm just thankful I wasn't directing the 10. I was TD'ing and I cried my way all the way through it. We carried the memorial service at the fire site for the full hour. No commercials. Lots of music and people talking. They read all 100 names. We didn't have a plan for that, but managed to get the stills of each person up by the time they got to the E's.

And yes, I know this place is still broken. But I'm posting this anyway and you can all read it once I get whatever's wrong fixed!

Update: Posting this seems to have fixed whatever was wrong. Lets hope it stays that way!

Not that I'd ever purposly try to make my mother crazy (she's nuts already! sorry Mom) But this guy is doing just that. He's asking total strangers to send his mom stuff. Of course you can't tell her that he's the one that asked for it. I gotta go find some postcards....

Link from another Mom

My Midwestern white self has discovered something wonderful out here in the land of more than one race. Goya juice! It's delicious! I'm drinking pear nectar at the moment and it's yummy. I bought one can just to check it out, but now I'm gonna have to try some more flavors.

I have now bought tickets to fly home when I have my vacation at the end of May. I'll be leaving May 27th and then coming back June 6th. That makes me happy. I can't wait to just hang out with people.

The next big expenditure is going to have to be Gnomedex related.

Dolce is acting odd. He's not being his normal self. He's kinda slow and a little klutzy. He's slightly more normal than he was when I first got home from work, but still not right. I found an animal hospital that has two AAV vets (avian) that opens at 7. I think I'm going to try to sleep for a couple hours and then call them first thing in the morning and see if I can get an appointment. Birds can get sick so fast that I don't feel comfortable waiting any longer than that.

Well, I'm heading out to the vet now. I'm really hoping that this is all just a colossal waste of time. I'm not sure if I can deal with something being wrong.

The vet called me about half an hour ago.

My beautiful, sweet, wonderful Dolce died around 6:20 this evening.

Needless to say I'm a basket case over here. The vet said he had a seizure and it seems like it was something neurological or maybe a toxin. He's going to do an autopsy. I want to know what happened. I don't want any other flock members getting sick.

I can't believe that I'm never going to have that little head burrow under my braid again. That he's not going to be snuggling under my chin or against my neck. That I'm not going to hear his sweetest of sweet whistles.

I feel horrible. I feel guilty, I feel like a bad mom. I wish I could have been with him. He was all alone for the last 4 or 5 hours. The last thing I did was hand him off to some stranger.

I want to snuggle with him again. I want to watch him get all excited when I give him a head scritch. I want to watch him get ridiculously wet and get me wet and get the entire bathroom wet while he takes a bath.

Be prepared for lots and lots of unpublished Dolce pictures to be showing up.

I don't know what to do.

Tell me this is all just a horrible dream.

I'm exhausted, can't sleep, and my head is pounding. In a word, miserable.

I can't let my brain stop. When I do I think about it. And then I lose it again. I just took a shower and that was plenty of time for me to remember.

I haven't been able to drink Coke either. Every time I see the cans in the fridge I remember his silly self begging for a sip or two. Knocking over empty cans. Stretching as far as he could to reach it because of course flying was reserved for emergencies only.

BTW, I'm sure you can expect a lot more posts like the last couple. I don't have anywhere else to go with this. I'm sure the mundane stuff will slowly sneak back in. It has to sooner or later right? This has to get not as bad someday right?

I'm thinking about trying to get one of these done.

When I first heard of companies doing this my initial reaction was a great big "Eww!" But the more I thought about it and read about it and heard people talk about it the more it didn't seem creepy, it seemed special.

The more I think about it the more I like the idea. I'll have to call the vet tomorrow and figure out what I need them to do.

My most recent Moblog image now shows up in the "column 'o stuff" on the right hand side. Now to get my most recent photoblog images to show up...

And just so you're not all surprised by it, the moblog is not even close to done yet. It's still on the default template/css and it desperately needs messing with.

This is stunning and incredibly cool. Turn your speakers up, sit back and enjoy. There's tons of other really interesting stuff on that site so go exploring while you're there.

Link from Jeneane

I just finished a can of Coke.

I'm all annoyed now. This fall I bought a new pair of jeans that were the smallest size I've been able to wear in a long time. Granted they're still huge, but it was a big deal for me! They were starting to get loose even! I'm wearing them now and they're tight. Grrr!!!

I gotta start doing something about that.

The two fish in the tank at work have ick.

Same name TD and myself are planning to go to the pet store tomorrow on our dinner break to get new gravel, new fish, and other miscellaneous fishy type things.