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Can't Stop

I can't let my brain stop. When I do I think about it. And then I lose it again. I just took a shower and that was plenty of time for me to remember.

I haven't been able to drink Coke either. Every time I see the cans in the fridge I remember his silly self begging for a sip or two. Knocking over empty cans. Stretching as far as he could to reach it because of course flying was reserved for emergencies only.

BTW, I'm sure you can expect a lot more posts like the last couple. I don't have anywhere else to go with this. I'm sure the mundane stuff will slowly sneak back in. It has to sooner or later right? This has to get not as bad someday right?

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it takes time. there will be a day when those memories won't make you cry but they will make you smile, until til then let yourself grieve.

(hugs)

Auntie Beth:

You just post whatever you need to to get thru this difficult time. UD and I still need to talk about KC even now, BUT yes, it does get easier and you do learn to feel joy again. You will, I promise.

Love you and Hugs, AB

Syn:

It does get easier, I promise. Did I ever tell you about Patches?? He was a stray I rescued as a 7th grader, he was the kitty we had before Menley. We only had him for maybe a year an a half and the summer of 1995 he got sick...kidney failure and the whole nine yards I ended up having to make the decision to have him put to sleep. There was really nothing more they could do for him and he was in pain so I know made the right decision but it haunted me for a very long time. I still think about him once in a while, and his tag is the one that I have on my keychain. It took a long time for it to not hurt to think about him and he wasn't with us nearly as long as Dolce was with you. But it will get easier, I promise. I know that doesn't really help right now, but there will come a time when the memories don't sting like they do now. And we're all here for you, that's what this place is for...so keep those posts coming if they help. Just be good to yourself, ok? (((((HUGS))))) I wish I could come out there and give you a hugin person. :( Thinking of you sweetie!

~Love ya!~
Syn

Unk Jeff:

You are doing the best you can do. Keep talking too whomever and whenever you are able. Yes, he is and will be on your mind a lot, that only makes sense about a loved one. it's okay. yes it will get better. like standing out in the ocean, as you walk in the waves still wash over you but they get smaller--at first they knock you over, then you'll find yourself just walking aloong the beach listening to the waves hit the shore.
be gentle with yourself. you are loved !
Vaya con Dios.

Perhaps the only real, lasting comfort to be found when you lose someone important to you, pet or otherwise, is the knowledge that having had is better than having not had their companionship while it lasted. As other posters have said, allow yourself to grieve, but rejoice in the history, and savor the memory, of Dolce. Take care... The blogosphere is sending you happy thoughts!

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